Thank you so much for your help even being this late at night. I'm sorry if I was worded my words in the wrong way that make you feel uncomfortable, I would not mean that and I would like to apologise of I did make you feel that way.
I will write my draft now and will post it tomorrow. Thank you
So here is my draft for what I'm going to send.
To whom it may concern,
I firstly want to thank Govia Thameslink Railway for giving me the opportunity to explain my behaviour. I acknowledge the seriousness and stupidity of what I have done on the 19th of December, and I deeply apologise for my actions.
My actions are inexcusable. I know that Govia Thameslink is only able to operate if everyone pays their fare, and I feel so guilty about attempting to breach the public trust by using the wrong travel card that I had no right to use on the journey I made to my cousin's house.
Until today, I keep reflecting on my action and I haven't been stopped hating on myself and couldn't have enough sleep as a result. As a student with a dream of getting into the Banking industry and in the process of applying for an internship, a criminal conviction will destroy my future chosen career as it requires enhanced record checking. As a child growing up in a strict Asian family, this is a shame to my whole family and I will not know what I can do in life if I get a criminal record.
Whilst there is no excuse for my behaviour, I'd like to explain that whilst being questioned by the Revenue Protection Officer, my anxiety set in and out of fear that I made a stupid decision to be dishonest with him during our conversation. I would like to sincerely apologise to the specific officer and Govia for that.
I have never been in trouble with the law in the past and I endure that I won't be in the future. I have already bought day and weekly travelcard (please see document) which I have been using/ will continue to use for all of my travels, and I swear that I will never do this again.
Additionally, I am currently in the UK under a family visa settlement scheme (please see document) and going to apply for British citizenship this year before the visa expires. A criminal conviction would certainly be noted against me by the Home Office in the "good character" requirement for becoming a British citizen.
I'm still living with my parents and with their financial help, if I couldn't able to stay in the UK, this would separate our family and I don't know where I could go. A criminal conviction would negatively impact every aspect of that and whilst I know that I have no one to blame but myself, I'm hoping you can help me with some leniency in this matter.
I am happy to make immediate payment of all unpaid fares and any incurred costs that my actions have caused, and I wish to settle this Out-Of-Court and avoid criminal conviction at all costs. Whilst I know what I did was wrong and I would really like an opportunity to make amends.
I hope that I've explained myself well and provided enough evidence. If you need anything further from me to help you reach your decision, please let me know. Thank you for taking your precious time to review my case, and sorry for any inconvenience and mistakes I have caused to you, to the company and to the public.
Yours Faithfully,
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