I am currently off work through depression. I have been off for nearly 3 weeks and my current fit note takes me up to next Monday.
This condition has been with me for years although this is the first time I have taken any time off. I have been in my current job nearly 3 years and disclosed the condition at my pre-employment medical.
Although not having any lost time directly with depression I have had 9 days off with a back injury and another 3.5 due to migraines.
I have had a lot to cope with over the past 2 years, 3 family bereavements (inc both my parents), 2 terrible house moves and I have had the threat of redundancy hanging over me. We have had 2 rounds of redundancies at work and no guarantee there won't be any more. We also came perilously close to having our house flooded in January.
All the stress came to a head 3 weeks ago. I knew something was going to give and spoke to my boss about going home sick. A few weeks ago I had been spoken to by HR re my attendance following the days off mentioned above. He suggested that taking more time off would lead to problems for me. Against my better judgement I went back to work. In a few occasions over the recent past when I have felt bad and wanted to take a few sick days he has talked my into taking these as leave days instead.
Unfortunately I lost my temper a couple of times the day before I went off sick and threw a few things around apparently scaring a couple of colleagues. Totally unacceptable I know, but I just could not help it. The following morning I felt awful but against my wife's advise went in. I went on to have a bad episode and walked out.
I know that if I was allowed to go off on the Wednesday nothing like this would have happened. I was of course totally stressed thinking I had effectively walked out but after my wife called the boss to tell him how I was told that wasn't an issue.
My worry now is that assuming I go back at the end of this fit note I will have accumulated 29 sick days in the past year. Not sure of the trigger point for disciplinary action but certain I will have passed that.
Bearing in mind my health and the company's need to cut a huge amount from the costs and assuming they don't just start the process of ultimately dismissing me would it be worth my while asking for a redundancy package or settlement package if I were to go voluntarily?
I do feel that a few months off and perhaps going to a part time role after that would be beneficial to me in the long run, our finances are fine and we can survive on my wife salary anyway so no great stress there.