I don't know where to start,
I have recently come to terms with the fact that my relationship is toxic. I have been with my mentally and sometimes physically abusive partner for almost 14 years and we have 3 children together.
He doesn't cope well at all with anything and I do my best to take it all on. Some years ago the bank decided to withdraw his overdraft and we were left with zero money a few days after payday, with pretty much all the bills to pay and the rest of the month to actually live. We already had debt and I had nobody to turn to for a favour of borrowing money.
I did something so stupid I cant believe I did it, I started talking out payday loans in both mine and his names without his knowledge or consent. I have committed fraud and now I want out of the relationship and I don't know what's going to happen to me or my children.
Right now Im sat upstairs down the side of my youngest childs cot in the dark trying to type through the tears - Iv lived with this secret for years, I cannot leave the house until I have seen the postman come and go just incase he brings a letter. I just need to know what will happen when all this comes to light.
I don't have the money to pay it off and I cant live like this anymore. Today something really bad happened and I just don't want to bring my children up in this environment any longer but Im so so scared of what will happen about all the fraud/debt.
Can anybody give me any guidance please? Im so ashamed of myself and this doesn't make any of it any better but I didn't do it to fund fancy clothes or days out it was to live