First of all, I feel so ashamed of what I have done,
I have developed a massive anxiety issue and am finding it hard to eat and sleep, let alone step foot on public transport.
Im absolutely terrified of what might happen so any help will be truly appreciated.
I graduated from University two years ago, although getting good grades I have struggled to find a job,
I'm in massive debt and am still stuck in my overdraft.
Despite this I plan on working and taking a masters so I can proceed with a career.
Im also doing fundraising for charity which I love, and need to travel to other countries to complete my sponsorship.
I know if I get a criminal conviction all this will end and my life will be over. Im so upset, please help me.
So ill start from the beginning.
My boyfriend has epilepsy and has a freedom pass which he never uses
I started to borrow it about 5 months ago, although I didnt quite realise how bad it would be if I got caught.
I also carried around a normal oyster card for the days when he would need it.
I entered the underground and swiped his pass,
when I got off the tube I was stopped by the officer,
when he asked to see my card I then gave him the normal oyster.
He said it was invalid, in minus credit and had not been used for several weeks.
He took my details, card, where I got on the tube, and asked how I got on.
I just said I walked through.
I couldn't even understand what he was saying and had a full blown panic attack.
I do suffer badly from asthma and did forget to take my medication in the morning
which led to me feeling light headed and short of breath which really didnt help.
I have now got a letter from TFL asking if I want to make any comment on the situation
and that I could be summoned to court and face a criminal record.
I have never done anything wrong in my entire life and always try to help others.
I don't believe how stupid I have been and it now looks like I have destroyed my life by doing what seemed like such a small thing!
Once again, Im so scared of what might happen and Im such an idiot! Please help me x